Un-synchronized Harmonies

"I had hoped it would all be ok..eventually. But it’s not. And it’s not gonna be. Ever. So I have to go. And it’s why you should too.” “But giving up isn’t-“ “It is.  We tried. It didn’t work so it probably never will.” “But-“ “In case you haven’t noticed yet, trust doesn’t come easily to me. I don’t do second chances and fresh starts. I do goodbyes and after all this time, I’ve become rather good at them.” “Don’t do this. You don’t wanna do this.” “I don’t, I have to. Goodbye, D” And with that I quickly turned on my heel and walked away feeling nothing. Absolutely nothing. As I said, I’ve become rather good at goodbyes. Still here (unfortunately for me) K

This post is sort of a goodbye to a friend. I know she'll never read it but it's for my own sake. For my own little goodbye. A, I'm not gonna pretend that we can keep this up and be BFFs and all that shizz. Cuz that's just not us. We can't work through skype sessions and yearly visits with hugs and kisses and 'how've you been'. It's been great knowing you and you've been an amazing friend. The kind I needed. The non-drama, non-fluffy, non-commitment friend with all the support but none of the answers. You've seen the other side. The one that comes out AFTER I deal with the other crap. All my friends know that side of me. The one they need to know if they're my friends. How I deal with things, how I am etc etc. But you've seen the other one. The normal me-without the crappy aftermath of everything. With all my friends I've done the feelings thing and solutions thing but with you, I've had to none of that. Be it meltdowns